The Machinery
Strange-heart, will you listen a moment
To the things I have forgotten
Like how my name sounded in your mouth
And how all the plans we made
Melted away in the heat
Hot as I imagined your mouth to be
Distant-heart, you’ve been all over
While I stayed just here
I haven’t waited for you in years
And your hair’s gotten longer
Trust me now like you did before:
You look as lovely as the day I met you
And just as ruinous. Sun-heart,
When I think of everything wrong with me,
I think of you
But I never think of you.
My knuckles remember you
Like blood and rain on concrete
Love-heart, sweet-heart, no heart
I had no heart
I wanted yours: covetous, beseeching me
A beggar with one prophet
Or: I wanted to live there inside you
In the fantastic mechanism of your watercolour heart
Painted green as moss and fern
And pale like a doll
Sometimes, I dreamt of myself
A golden leaf in your whirlwind heart
But when I am held by arms made of air
Am I really held at all?
Storm-heart, heart of my heart,
I forgot how it felt to crash into concrete
From a height such as you